Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Just came back from the last post-LASIK consultation, with 6/6 in both eyes.
but the doctor was in awe again, for my eyelashes are fantastic - in a bad way.
it's long for a guy, and yes i never trim it (we are not supposed to trim our eyelashes right?)
but length is not the gist.
it's where these lashes are attracted to.
yes, wala, my eyes.
it's forever pointing down, and for your information it's much longer than it seems because a fraction of it is hidden under my eyelids.
since the strands of eye-hair inevitably pricks on my eyes, corneal cells may be damaged.
in severe cases, it results in infections and scarring.
but what i am concerned most is, astigmatism.
astig is a refractive error caused by irregularities on the surface structure of the eye.
an astig-free eye is perfectly spherical, but one diagnosed with astig is usually oblong, like an american football.
wait i am digressing again.
astig = light cant bend and focus perfectly due to a flawed corneal surface.
flawed, whereby it's not completely smooth but in the case i am trying to refer to, sandpaper-ish.
this sandpaper effect is achieved, in prolonged periods, by the war between my eyelashes and cornea.
and the eyelashes always win, because it's so freaking long and it pricks my eyeball while my eye can't retaliate and it can do nothing but ummm, cry. i know right, pathetic little eyes.
let me illustrate it better; sorry but this post is so choppy.
you poke a slice of aloe vera with a needle.
while you cant see the indentations, it's there, and it takes time to heal.
and if healing is impaired, it becomes a scar - one that you cant see.
ironic right, a scar that is never noticed.
thus astig! and astig = glasses.
so however girlish it may be, i gonna be using an eyelash curler and continue to put on eyedrops.
because, my drooping eyelids (medically termed "entropion") will cost me another $3000-$7000 for a correction by some senior plastic surgeon.
and i am not going for another cosmetic surgery, prior to the LASIK one, anytime soon.
i may get a nosejob/eyelid-job/eyebag-job/facial-fat-job in the future though.
KIDDING, but i just may.
we'd never know what's coming at us, even if we try deciphering it in any way.
omg i shall do another mini post.
fringe said this which i shared on facebook.
Nothing just happens. Every event has a message - you just have to lean close enough to hear it.
I do believe that there are "observers" in this world who have planned our lives in some way.
what's for dinner, and what i am going to type next.
nothing just happens you know, whether if you've flunged your As or gotten 2.2 for GPA.
it may be a call for you to pull yourself up, or that that someone is wanting you to be a nurse/engineer because you are fated to be one - but a good one.
in monopoly, there's fate and chance.
while fate is pre-determined, you are given a chance to choose.
after making your choice, ultimately, it leads you to your destiny.
so let's just say that this observer who is governing your life has marked out 10 possible destinies.
and every destiny falls under a different band of points.
every correct/good choice = 1 point and incorrect/bad choice = -1 point.
and let's assume that for every 10 points, you move on to another destiny.
at 0 point, you are destined to be a normal worker for some boss.
at 10 points, you are going to be an accomplished worker with multiple big projects and given more chances to make choices.
at 50 points, you are given your dream.
so we should try working hard to make every choice a right one, because a wrong one will require your 2 more ticks to make it +1 when it could have been +1 from that 1st choice alone.
this may sound bullshit.
but i think it works the same for karma.
and i believe in karma, as well as this.
it may not be true, but it makes me a better person i hope.
and no i still dont believe in god(s), because there're some parts of it that i find inappropriate.
i dont mind going to hell, but i want to live my before-afterlife well, where i help those who i want to, and be as good and useful and wanted and appreciated and amiable as possible.
and if i am still going to hell even after that, due to the fact that i dont believe in them, it proves my belief even more.
if you are smart enough, you will get what i am hinting at.