Saturday, January 29, 2011
Went shopping with koknam the other day, and saw this pair of shorts.
It's sorta like plaid on a white base, and those lines where brownish, yellow and blue.
It's mesmerising.
and on the 1st instincts, i told myself to buy it.
my 2nd instincts was to check the price.
and dear google, it's $299.90.
so i returned it to the rack, and waited for koknam to come out with his fit.
i've been eyeing that shorts since the encounter on some online article, and now, i am slapped hard in the face.
when i am rich, and i better be, i will make sure i save 50% of my pay per month and commit the rest to THE EXPENSIVE TRAVEL FARES (petrol is equally expensive as the absurb busfares) and shopping and food and to my parents.
everyone should expend more, so the economy will prosper like mad.
then we will get more pay rise.
if we dont get it, then lets migrate elsewhere :D
i always tell my mum,
what's the point of earning money if you don't spend it?
she never answers it.
but when she maples, she sees the bank as something superior to levels.
and that 钱很多，看了爽
and so she continues grinding for more money, but never uses it.
sometimes, i felt as though they've given up their lives for ours.
they only go shopping to restock the fridge, and barely has any friends simply because they dont have the time for such relationships.
and they slog so much.
not for themselves, but us.
however noble that may be, i dont wanna see them doing this to themselves.
i want them to retire and i've been hinting at it.
it's because of what i see that i do not wish for a marriage.
i can tell myself that "i shall not be bounded by responsibilites and continue to live life"
but when it really comes, i just dont know if i can still say and realise the same line i stated.
because if i do have children, i want them to have the best treatment.
making sure that they play the violin, take dance and singing lessons, draw well, understand fashion and etiquette, take up some sport and make sure that they never grow too fat or thin - they're sorta like living my dreams.
i dont really care if they suck at school or what.
i just want them to feel alive.
i dont want them to call me dad, i want them to call me by my name.
and it's not because of some stupid drama that i hate, but that's what i've been thinking of since forever.
"dad" gives too much an authority and power.
i want to be close to them. the really close and friendly kind.
like bffs.
but to fund all these goals for my children aint an easy task.
to juggle between work, family, friends and shopping is a torture.
in any case, i'd have to give up the last option first.
and then i will be the host to the parasitic fatigue such that i'd find no energy or time for friends.
and then work will become so important that you'd gradually forget why you started working for in the first place - for better lives.
and your family gets compromised.
not only your spouse and children, the most obvious example would be parents-grandparents.
most of them dont live together, and barely see them much.
but it is when we are grownups that we need more time with our parents no?
in the first 4hours of kbox, you'd take your time singing a full song and all.
but when it comes down to the last 30minutes, we only sing through the chorus and thats it.
shouldn't this be the same treatment to them? that we should really seize the chance and appreciate this 30minutes with them?
we take their living presence for granted. everyone does. just because it's been fine for the last 20 years doesn't mean that it will be the case for the next 20.
everyone tells us to appreciate your closest kins, but do we really do that?
previously, i'd always wanted to move out.
it's an entirely different story now.
life is full of comprises.
it is choosing what you want that makes your life worthwhile and living.
dont let work define you, nor anyone or anything cause you to waver.
dont work OT if you dont know what it is that you're working for,
most adults work for money just because it's money.
the more the merrier.
really? the more the merrier even when you dont spend?
ya right.