Wednesday, January 23, 2008
eh for once i try to make this short :D
watched 斗牛10 finally...
its super touching...
really!!
omg...it shows me wat is life...
so near yet so far...
e restrictions and everything...
people who tink they care and noe everything...
people u luv...
people u made frens with...
havin no choice and no say in anything...
being brought up in a life u may nvr haf wanted...
all these...i can see from 1 episode of drama...
tats why i watch drama...
it brings me nearer to my life...
makes me more knowlegeable...
be more mature and understand wat u really want...
and wat u can nvr get...
feel lik thrashing wine bottles lik e way they did....
haiz...a beri sad epi of 斗牛...
but i luv it...
i changes my mood completely...
immersing myself in der world...
lols...but coz got people around i cannot show my emotions freely...
and my face is sort of lik numb...
so i cannot frown...
cannot frown means cannot get teary at all..
its super uncomfortable on lor!
wanna cry cannot cry...
not mentally but physically...
now e face oso feel odd odd de...
haiz...
tmr got O lvl chinese results...
really begging and dying for an A1...
if not A...
i will go home and isolate myself....
dun bother calling me oso...
i wun answer...
:P lols...
did a test on self-esteem...
and since when did i haf intermediate self-esteem de...
to me...i dun tink i lik anything about me at all...
i got this feeling tat everything tat i did is wrong...
and people are unhappy bout me but nvr sae anything at all...
lols...totally personal....
well...time i go and relax myself in sth more light-hearted la..
b4 i face e certificate tmr...
even e most bitter coffee i made todae was sweet...
i dunno why...
but tat wasn supposed to be e case...
it was nvr e case la...:P
lols ok la..
good luck to all getting e cert tmr...
str8 As!!
good luck...
esp to seniors :D
joel,fusheng,huiling, yingxian and all anyone tat i may haf missed out...
all e best...
:D :D
byes~
恶魔之心，不可无。