Friday, March 25, 2011
I have never quite posted anything like this yet, so i thought that i should.
to sorta like come clean with myself.
or leave another footprint so i can play detective in the future.
so yeps, i got a temporary PES E.
and i dont get what's so significant/insignificant about that.
it's not about friends but more of a family kind of thing.
just some time ago, i cant recall the actual date and time but there was this family gathering - my grandma's birthday dinner.
it's never been dreadful, in fact i love such experiences.
the thing is, people have different views when it comes to me being a c.l.e.r.k.
i am not particularly proud of such a vocation, and hey i am not given ANY choice over it.
some of them wishes for their sons to enlist as a clerk, i mean that's perfectly fine.
but noone's been sensitive to what i am going through.
i mean, i've never given much thought to it anyways but it's this lot of people who've made me done so.
i know it sounds like an easy task, especially if you put it next to PES A commando training eh?
but i feel judged.
they didnt put it straight out, and not all of them did.
i just wanna say that i didnt sign up for this, wait i did, but not out of my own will.
if you think that i am a pussy just because i am going to be an office clerk while the other normal men goes training and sweating in the fields, then so be it.
so just shoo and stop judging people.
i am not going to be a loser just because i am a clerk.
especially since i didnt sign up for one.