Sunday, February 13, 2011
I feel like creating a tumblr.
apparently it's quite popular in westernised countries :/
and the layout looks really cool - beats a bird twitting here and there.
everytime i think of me going through lasik, i feel super happy.
to make do without those irritating glasses, and clear vision without any direct interference to your eyes.
the hype aside, tomorrow is v-day.
if i do wake up on time, i'd go gym in the morning.
then buy myself lunch.
and continue youtubing or pptving.
being alone is not that bad a thing no?
welps thats exactly what i've been telling myself before i'd gotten a phone/facebook account.
so i cant judge those couples.
but oh no, i think ima be a leftover wizard in life. (why does witch sound offensive, but wizard majestic)
i do believe that there're elements of boy and girl in any person.
it's just the extent of being 70% guy and 30% girl or any other proportions.
i think i fall on the 50-50 side.
the way i act and all.
and i think i can relate pretty well with either gender, minus all the awkward silence and such.
then i got this feeling that people who are 70% guy and 30% girl would be predominantly boyish, and be the usual desperate guy who goes crazy over girls.
vice versa for girls.
for people like me, the 50-50 lot, i do fine alone.
or maybe, better alone.
on the streets, i look at both pretty guys and girls.
and when someone passes a wink at me, trying to hit a hint, there will be this sort of fear in me.
there's this thing inside me telling me not to get attached and with all my might, i shun away and go into hiding.
and when the gaga subsides, at times, i regret my actions. at times.
i regret because i wonder if i'd do better not being alone.
then again, i know that relationships at this point will lead to nowhere.
as much as i'd like to believe in that, for the majority it just aint the case.
and like anyone in one, they'd say something about everlasting love and never leaving one another.
when the break comes, they'd live in what seems like eternal sorrow.
it's because i've witnessed it, am i thus fear-full.
this world is ruled by equilibrium.
when you get all the joy being together with your love, you will need to repay it somewhere sometime.
with equal intensity.
and with all the emoness i amass in my teens, i hope it pays off in having a beautiful adulthood.
when i blog, i feel offensive.
as though i am shattering one's dream in pieces.
mine included.
so yeps, happy v-day.