Sunday, March 29, 2009
lethargic, and it's aggravation as i foresee the even more demented and ardous journey ahead...
it's not effortless for one to be involved in anything and everything, and even more so in this always-so-hectic environment i am exposed to in the past months...
it's ideal, and deriving substantial amounts of pleasure and enjoyment when being involved, but yet my character isn't just like that of some other individuals - those that when exposed to strangers for the first time, am willing to lie their arms over the latter's shoulders and calling him friend.
it's just weird, friendship is something that complements which time and exposure.
and for me, the ever-so-shy person, it's not like an overnight thing for me to accustom myself to new-beings and sorta like become very close friends.
basic courtesy comes in, and care, and concern, before a relative strong bond is formed - friendship bond. :D
and this bond is endothermic - it requires colossal amounts of energy to establish.
taking this endothermic reaction as that of a 99-storey structure ~
i am one step closer to the summit of the high-rised building, it's gonna be a harsh, tiring and time-consuming path ahead, but at least i take into consideration the joy and sense of accomplishment received from the process of the tedious and long climb, rather than that when i use the lift which deprives exposure. It's gonna be an enjoyable climb, one with new friends supporting and accompanying you. and sometime before, or at, the peak, this bond strengthens.
i dont feel sad when i blog, it's more of like writing down my life.
a different phase of my life, i suppose.
i'd never really come down and ponder hard over this period of time due the cramped-up schedule, and i am doing it now - i think it's good, at least i make myself be known.
lol, i am freaking shy in co.
it's not like i dont wanna mix around, but more of like i have no topics to start with. they are (really really really)^∞ nice people, but i am lost as to how to go about relating to them. somehow, they know at least one other peorson in vjco when they join - previous schoolmate i suggest.
and it's quite comfortable for them to settle down, good for them :D
i still need some time to open myself up to the co people.
perhaps next week, i should try.
try harder than the previous attempts, if any.
FWENS - the most important subject in life.
byes~