Thursday, March 6, 2008
to reply to kn's tag...
i dedicate this post to kn and all my friends out there...
if i have any at all :P
i have come up with some very interesting stuffs concerning my best friend, ryan :D
TODAY :D
he did something very wrong to someone...
and in the end, when i talked to him...
he personal-attacked me :D
isn that great?
the event goes ~
ryan was hitting and molesting henry as usual...
it was to an extent that henry couldn take it anymore...
his face literally turned red...
and henry was then pissed :D
waaaay pissed...
he could take it no more that ryan is molesting him with some books :D
out of countless attempts henry tried to warn ryan to stop it...
my best friend continued :D
and henry snatched ryan's books and swang it all the way to the back of the class :D
ryan literally fetched the books and STILL, reprimanded henry for doing so...
that totally pissed me off...
henry was still having that pissed and angry front...
trying to calm the atmosphere down, i talked in a joking manner...
"ryan...how old already? still play play play...haiz...."
ryan said to henry "ya la! you older than me still like that!"
i replied again..."ryan...dont be so childish can? going 16 already ==''..."
guess what?
he said this in return "ya, my dear qihao...you are so childish...see? so much white hair still so childish..."
his tone was babaric and totally insulting :D
sometimes i just cannot stand him...
tried to talk to him nicely and yet he treat me this way?
great?!
no friendly ties AT ALL dated 6th march onwards...
in conclusion...
he was 0000.0000000000000000000000000 EQ...
this is supported by his actions...
henry was very very very very angry!
charmaine could tell that toooo!
and ryan remains insensitive to henry's feelings!
hello?!
you were friends with him SINCE SEC 2...
YOU LITERALLY FORCED ME OUT OF THE GANG!
and this is how you treat your friends?
are they even your friends?
or just an object for you to snob at? to feel superior over them?
his thoughts and mine totally clashes...
my best friend...OMG?
this is further supported by his actions...
i tried to step in and resolve the matter in a light and happy manner...
and HE TOTALLY COULDN UNDERSTAND OR FEEL MY TONE,PURPOSE AND INTENTS!
hello?!
i am trying to help to resolve conflict here...
and you ARE AT FAULT!
you were molesting someone and he was getting damn pissed at that!
he resented on you...
and you scolded him back?!
that was enough already!
on top of that...
i tried to help...
and he used my point to further jack henry?
oh my celestial!
i continued trying to help in a joker-tone...
and still...
you dont understand at all...
I WAS TRYING TO RESOLVE IN A LIGHT-HEARTED WAY!
he turned the tables...
and starting with personal attacks...
i ended off the whole thing with a sentence : "THANKS ALOT FOR THE COMPLIMENT RYAN :D"
and i did smile back at him and i kept quiet...
seriously...
henry and wl are still my friends and will say so forever...
no doubt about that...
though we are not as close now...
but i can sense their emotions...
you are somehow in the same group as them and this is how you interprete their feelings?
cant you sense their emotions at all?
omg...
EQ 0000.000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000!!!!!!!!
cannot stand him!
if i were to treat my friends this way....
i really wish that they can leave me immediately!
no matter what...
if you think that staying with someone is overbearing, then just leave him...
i'd rather you leave me than be inflicted by more harm by me!
i may not be able to understand then...
coz my EQ is 0000.000000000000000000000000000...
but when my EQ progresses...
i will eventually understand why you did that...
and will FORGIVE AND FORGET...
forgive and forget is totally not in the ryan's dictionary...
never in the past...
not in the present moment...
not in the future...
WHY CANT HE CHANGE FOR THE BETTER?
DOESN HE KNOW THAT SOMETHING IS TERRIBLY WRONG WITH HIM?
ASK AROUND!
EVEN THE PEOPLE WORKING WITH HIM DOESN LIKE HIM!
SOME EVEN ASK ME "WHY IS HE EVEN IN THE SC?"
you know what?
when i hear what that person say about the sc thing...
i feel super depressed...
this is what people see of sc...
incapable people leading the school...
they dont see the good scs...
they see the bad ones...
RYAN was doing english compre during our sc meeting...
IF YOUR HEART IS NOT WITH SC...
LEAVE THE ROOM...
WE WILL MAINTAIN YOUR POST...
WE KNOW THAT YOU ARE DESPERATE FOR CCA POINTS!
SERIOUSLY...
WE RATHER YOU NOT BE PRESENT FOR THE MEETING THAN DOING IRRELEVANT STUFFS DURING MEETINGS!
THATS TOTALLY IRRITATING OK?
EQ zero...
IQ 200 is also pointless...
seriously...
my dear friends...
if ryan is not of a suitable calibre to be your friend...
kindly reject him...
NEVER BECAUSE THAT YOU FEEL BAD TO REJECT HIM..
AND STICK WITH SOMEONE THAT IS TOTALLY NOT WORTH TO BE YOUR FRIEND...
NOT TRYING TO STRIP HIM OF HIS FRIENDS...
BUT I COULD TAKE IT NO MORE...
SERIOUSLY...
I FEEL SUPER TERRIBLE FOR MY FRIENDS AROUND HIM...
I DON KNOW WHY...
SOMETIMES...
I PUT MYSELF IN THEIR SHOES AND FEEL SUPER EMO, DEPRESSED AND TEARY...
WHEN I TRY TO BE LIKE RYAN...
I FEEL A TOTAL DIFFERENT WORLD...
A WORLD THAT DOESN BELONG TO MY FELLOW FRIENDS...
the word "friend" is defined differently in different parts of one's life...
now...i define it as "someone who is sensitive, understanding and helpful to me in every aspect possible...even if not of much help...its the thought that counts and i will remember that..."
in short...
a friend is someone that i remember for life...
a friend is someone that understands why i do things in certain ways...
a friend is someone that knows my emotions at that point of time... (hardest to attain coz i am emo :D)
with that i would like to end off...
ryan totally impacted my life....
he showed me a very foreign aspect of life...
that i could never understand...
from today...
i will try to say "i love you" to ryan everyday...
in hope that the word "love" can change him for the better...
i am feeling damn sad now...
why do the "friend" treat his "so-called friends" so differently from how i treat mine?
never understood it...
feeling even sadder...
just leave me alone to think through his actions...
anyone who knows the answer would like to tag the answer?
thanks alot...
恶魔之心，不可无 from tommorrow to be changed to "friend - or not?"