Thursday, March 27, 2008
haiz haiz haiz...
sometimes..
i really wonder if some people are really so immature...
or is it that they choose not to be understanding towards people...
this has got something to do with my brothers...
and seriously...
i cannot stand them...
SERIOUSLY A NONO!!!!
argh...
whatever...
i will talk about that later..
i guess..
but now...
i shall elaborate on my current condition...
now...
i am extremely sick and tired..
and i can feel cramps and sprains and pain in my joints all around my body...
seriously all around my body...
i can feel that my heart has slowed its pace already...
and my breaths are deep yet liveless..
my eyes are getting really bleary though i had gotten really sufficient sleep...
haiz...
i am feeling very very clumsy and listless...
very very...
T_T
i didn have my lunch at all...
i guess that made the problem worse...
but somehow...
i was tooo tired for any meal....
i shouldn have taken the medication in school...
it made me feel so drowsy and weak...
and so...
i was sleeping throughout some lessons...
and didn knew which lessons did i miss...
coz i didn even have any recognition of anything after mr ong came in during english lesson..
i was late...
and it didn even bother me at all...
i am just too tired to even do the tiniest stuffs around me...
pe was simply fun...
but overtaxing...
and found myself regret after taking pe lesson....
i had a mc..
and was supposed to be excused from school today..
yet i didn...
which i regret to some extent...
though i did learn some things today...
so it wasn that bad anyways...
after lessons...
had sc meeting...
cheering stuffs again...
and somehow...
the force is there...
but given the increased amount of force produced...
i received a much reduced yield of voice and loudness...
and on top of that..
restrains were released...
and i found that some things were pulling my throat muscles...
that made my feel totally disgusted and groggy...
i came home..
imagined that i could actually use the computer to play...which i had not since a week ago?
it was not due to that fact that i restricted myself to playing or what...
i just didn get to use the computer due to some disgusting and stingy people called "brothers"
i just...
dont like them...
i just want to relax myself for a day...
and seriously get to sleep at a much earlier time...
guess i couldn..
some things need to be done...
and cannot be procrastinating about it...
so just live your life and love your life...
dont be someone like me...
the phrase to be used is "so near yet so far"...
the physical factors struck off all the motivation ...
and found it to be a torture in this world at this moment of life...
life is catastrophic isnt it?
its like a disaster that continues everyday...
and seriously i am interested in the word "time"
i shall just shut myself and think about this word...
hope i can come out with a set of theories and things like that..
coz i feel that what i am thinking about time now makes sense...
and that it should have some facts in itself...
so ya..
byes all...
take good care ~