Tuesday, January 15, 2008
yoyoyoyoyo! :P
todae has been another =='' day for me..
1stly...everything in e morn was pretty ok lor...
except for e fact tat e grooming check is still on...
lols...omg...
and ytd got caught for hair...
but todae nvr kenna...
see? ytd is teacher not happy with me so catch me de :P
and sumhow they asked for lost badges...
mine's spoilt :P
and guess wat?
miss jamie tan was SOOOOOOO efficient coz she managed to get e badges todae afternoon...
and gave it out to everybody todae...
omg...
howeva...i was still tasked to design e sc badge...
which e logo is done :P
but i will develop it sumtime...before friday...
coz i promised her tat i will finish it by friday..
and i believe tat e badge she gave out todae was supposed to be for e EV visit...
and i was super super super hyper hyper ultra ultra pissed!!!
it was waaaaaaay worse den ytd T_T
omg...
thinking back is still making me pissed....
ARGH!!!
read on if u wan if not den skip! its all my rants and raves! !!!!
i m excluded in e EV visit!!!!
WTF?!!!
i m a cca leader and sc exco...
why i not counted?
summore i wanna go for it de lor...
and i dun get e chance to go...
wtf is this? damn school...
even if nid go for interview den go la...
didn even tell me...
argh!? got interview oso confirm pass one...
heard its 1 in every 5 years...
means once in my lifetime from now la?!
and i dun get to experience it...
WTf....
dammit...
sry for all e vulgarities...
but this is e most angry day i had since p6!!!
omg..
and i was complaining to sum people todae bout this...
though i tried to remain calm...
but e mental anger is just so much...
and tats why i got a beri beri serious headache...
from chinese lesson onwards...
omg!its freaking pain...
and its all becoz of e EV visit...
dun nid me den nvm lor...
next time got tings come to me i oso dun wan do liao...
i m not goin to contribute to e sch from todae onwards...
unless e sch come and beg for me...
den i consider...
****...
ARGH!!!
dun tink u all can see how pissed i m now...
now i typing i scolding everyone tat come kajiao me...
even my mum...
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
got tat feeling to keep spamming on this on and on!
nth to vent on sia!
this thing is killing me!
no nid me den still check my grooming for wat sia?
super 不爽 with mr tan...
heard he daoed anyone who asked bout this...
purposely one rite?
i purposely dao u oso..
at first tot u nvr come jeesiao me i dun care bout u...
but since u dun lik e excos so much...
i join e others lor...
this is not e way to lead people...
for goodness sake...
omg!? his approach is just so wrong...
and to imagine i was so polite to him ytd when i hand e attendance list to him...
wat is tis?!
i bet this thing can spoil e next few days to come...
when ryan leaves e class for e EV interview...
and i myself being cooped in e class looking at em goin around with e visitors...
u noe wat kind of feeling is tat anot?
its worse den kenna dao lor...
feel lik crying over this matter...
meeans alot to me but i nvr sae out...
and i dun nid anyone to help me fite for it...
since they didn even bother putting me in e list...
why i be so thick-skin to ask for e chance?
i m not so despo...
but its e "qihao" feeling inside me..
its so not me...when i dun get to do such things...
oh great...
believe me anot...
but i m super super sad in front of e com now...
and u may not haf eva seen me in such a face b4...
wadeva...dun talk le...
nth helps anyway...
i'll just repay everything e sch has done for me...
haiz...
trying to get back to blogging...
to me...blogging is a platform for me to express my own emotions..
coz my emotions are quite dead in sch...
u dun really see e full me...
but from here u can see wat really bothers me..
its not bout e sarcasm or comments about me....
i can take all of em...
but its e tiniest things...
its e tings tat almost noone would eva haf noticed...
tat makes my life go wrong...
:'(
haiz..
den todae went out to sch for lunch and saw this bloody pad when we went back to sch...
its super gross and i ate a full lunch...
eee...
how e gal throw it der...
dig for it and just pull it out meh?
disgusting leh...
in front of a sch summore...
lols...
den we went to cd shelter to study...
sumhow got to noe e whole of 12 liao...
and not much of others...
but i tried playing canon e melody on e piano...
i suck at it...
but i tink still can hear la...
:P
tats all bah...
e main jizz is everything in e rants...
they can make me forget all e happy moments i had in this sch...
i may not even shed a tear when i leave...
autonomy doesn require me...
it doesn require anyone...
its about how u make e students feel tat they lik this sch...
and not how u make e students sae how they lik it...
not referring to ngee ann...
but in any case...
this is to anyone is any sch...
seriously...
saddies...
another thing tat can potentially drive to depression or long-term emo or suicidal...
haiz...
todae's another sad post...
can't my life be any beta?
i tink ryan has a way beta life den mine...
can i just die away?
who will actually care even as i die la...
i dare not imagine...
but whoeva around me tat goes away...
my life will be beri beri much devastated...
tat's how i define emo...
"emotional feelings per unit time"
emo feel alot...
but they feel too much...causing their emotions to feel numb...
thus not allowing em to express their feelings freely...
tats wat's becoming of me...
if such things were to proceed...
i m not as strong as i look...
though i alr look lik a weakling...
i dun tink anyone can actually understand my world...
i tink it suits me beta to be "e alien from pluto"
all e above stated are really wat i felt for e whole upper secondary events...
it takes one worm to spoil a basket of apples...
and it takes only one act to spoil all e good impressions left...
i can be forgiving...
but must see situation...
sry for making e whole post sound so solemn/emo
but i nid to sae all these things out to sumone...
not face to face...
coz i cannot take rejections...
i just nid to sae...to make me feel beta...
at least i wun tink so much...
well..
wish u all haf a much much beta life den me...
byes.......
恶魔之心,不可无。