Thursday, January 31, 2008
haiz...
suddenly realise tat e world i beri fast wor!
tmr i friday...and its only so close...1min time only...
lols...
haiz....
and tmr got chem test....
sumhow almost all e class noe e questions liao...
well...
i dun really noe it la...
but just do it :D
coz impossible is nothing (IIN)
but i found sth tat is impossible one!!!!
its e owner of IIN!
lols...its impossible for her not to haf laughing fits for A DAY....
:D
heaheaheahea!!!
tats how it sounds lik....
and todae at pizze hut super funny lor..
dunno over wat joke...
but got me super laughing....
mostly due to zm's actions :D
well u noe...
gy and cy were being public disgraces lik usual...
coz gy learnt e technique and MASTERED it from cy :D
so they were lik....disgracing each other?
or catfite? or bitchfite?
ummm... all bout e same la...
same idea....
:D
lols...and zm laugh lik crazy...
and we were tellin her to contain herself...
and tried to demo it to her....
and she laughed even louder....
lols....
haiz....i spilt e cheeeese :D
accident...
but ok la..not alot :D
3mini-spoons only :D
lols...and gy didn noe e meaning of sum words tat he used for ages...
and we had a hard time explaining to him...
lols...
and e new com got prob la...
sian...e monitor cannot on liao...
i duno why...
cable not connected when i went to connect it 3times?
omg...
e computer freaking dun lik me :D
i freaking dun lik him oso :D
i hate him :D :D
!@#!%$@#$%
wow...my bro use no prob at all...
summore they gang and use it all e way from after sch...
which is lik 3pm to 10pm at nite...
and i m lik a complete mirror....
eh...
cannot la...
if they look into a mirror i tink they can see a loser ah?
:D :D
and noe wat?
when i got e com for lik just not long ago...
it anti-cabled automatically on me....
wow?!
*claps*
magic wooor!
see? i beri pro rite???
*claps* :D :D
thk u thk u :D
when they use it nth happens...
when i use it....
i can perform tonnes of magic....
:D :D
guess wat?
my mum just tried to switch it on...
and *POOF*!!!
she succeed!!!
wow!!see e extent my magic can go until?
i can make it shut down under my control when others couldn...
ohh great :D
and i was beri unhappy with sch rules now :D
one more unstated rule and i gonna go complain str8 thru email liao :D
see how they die :D
muahahahahahah!
eh...i was oso juju with my chem spa :D
anyways... juju means jubilant means happy :D
waaa...
and i super paiseh and sorry lor...
when they pass down e chem spa paper...
i saw a 5+1...
so i tot it was mine..coz ryan dun get tis kind of grade de...
den i open and see e 1st line...
i was super shocked!!!
e handwriting turned so UGLEA!!!
lols...and i said...
"ohhhh...ryan....sorry!"
and he nvr sae nvm...
which made me beri unhappy with myself..
coz i overestimated ryan liao :D
ok eveyone :D
come to me if u nid help :D
though sumtimes i duno how to help :D
but no harm asking :D :D
love love loves!~~~~~
random :P
bye!
恶魔之心，不可侮。
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
hi :D
quite a long time nvr blog liao...
and tot there was no motivation to blog at all...
look at e blog no mood le :P
coz e blog beri ugly!!
just like me XD
e tagboard oso lik nth liddat one :P
lols..
haiz...
these few days were lik some kind of maddogs...
super chiong lor!
amaths, chem and all these stuffs...
all super fast leh!
and everyday got no time for sleep no time for play de....
aiyo...
my dark circles becomin lik panda liao...
eh...
wanna wear contacts...
tink i said b4...
specs are just so uncomfortable :D
wooooooh!
can't imagine....
goin end of week 4 le wor!
dun start study means WWIII starting!!!
ahhh...
and jeremy, the alliance and engleong and wadeva will all bomb in :P
den can see a super good show in 4r1 :D
"talk to my hand!"
"talk to my finger!"
"wakabooom!"
"chikibombbomb!"
...
and all those noises fly out :D
wow...
recently find myself segregating from people in class...
dunno why...
feel so extra :P
especially when mary suddenly disappear...
i nvr got to see her again...
and it makes my life beri bored...
everyday is only tinkin bout all those useless things only :D
noone to talk to....
scared bother people around me and cannot study well....
haiz...
got a few hp games...
lik elven chronicles liddat one...
should be quite fun bah...
all just started...
i dunno why...
but i was super awake during all classess!!!
miracle!!
muacks....
even physics....EWWWW!
got e ripple tank tat actually leak water...
super dumb one....
lols....during chinese cannot rmbr wat i was during...
only rmbr she sae sth about her D7 and A1s everyday...
lols...actually she is quite nice de....
but different teachers got different ways of showing their care....
miss yanti started out with reverse psychology...
sae our english worse den 7-year-old e nephew....
lols....and now she beri nice to us....
our chi teacher try to act fierce....
but same style as dion...
cannot look fierce de....
e face will make people wanna laugh....
haiz....
summore he MA,NE,HA at e end of sentence is beri 突出 one lor...
bombastic!
MA~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
wow...finally found e use of ~~~~
~~~~to refer as variation in unappropriate pitches...
basically...
vibrato or 斗音 with all e flats and sharps....
imagine playing a CNY song liddat....
it will become a funeral song lor...
LALALALALA....
i have always been playing funeral songs :D
wanna play angmoh version of funeral songs oso :D
play on violin :D :D
wahh....
sudden crave for new music and overseas exposure....
DYING FOR IT!!!
AHHHH!
just finished 斗牛11 :D
watched from ytd to todae...
coz ytd com hang...
which i dunno why...
and lazy to on again...
so todae continue for 25min e remainder :D
wow...
its touching....
and sumhow in similar context to our world....
not those kind of super impossible things one....
:D :D
at least got things to be sad about...
feel sad for 若赫，胜雪 and 子聪.....
haiz....
sad sad life...
mines sadder :P :P
they lose to me!!!
wahhahahhaha:P naninanipupu :P
come do drama about my life bah :D
i tink will be beri popular one lor :d
lols....
and e title should be "kill u, wan or dun wan"
....tats random...
and sounds wrong...
but suitable name for my life :D
kill u!!!!
muahahahha
ok la....
12.03am liao...
go to settle sum things on com den go sleep liao tmr got pe...
argh...
:D :D
saddest day of week :D
byes!!!
恶魔之心，不可无。
Thursday, January 24, 2008
well...
lik i haf said to sum people todae...
its supposed to be a happy and sad day...
i expected tat to be e case...
and e happy and saddy is to e extremes those kind :P
1stly...
got a new com...
now using it...
arghh...
its not 500gb la...
320gb...19inch...
bought it quite cheap :D
lol..but my bro all damn stupid...
send e games thru msn...
lols?
if msn can send those save-formatted files so smoothly den wat for got websites for u to dl from?
super pissed with em la...
tink they beri pro with pc applications...
everything must come find me one..
sae sum kinda term to em and they gif me that wadeva look...
haiz...
lols...den todae was e day of getting o lvls...
mrs tan suan me!
ahhh!but e way she talked changed when we received our results...
well...
was beri scared thruout e day...
i noe i can get A...
but den...just beri scared....
coz psle i tot i can get e results i wanted...
but everything went soooooo wrong...
but luckily maintained my chi standard la...
guess 林老师 beri disappointed...
got tat feeling tat she dun wan to take one...
lols...
but all teachers do things of OUR GOOD...
so thx alot...
though i may not lik u at all :P
eh...
but though i was happy with my results..
i tried to be conservative bout it lor...
and was super sad when got to noe other people's score...
its tantamount to u getting a undesirable grade for o lvls as well...
it just got sad solemn and quiet...
i didn noe wat to sae..
i m not those kind of people who are beri beri good at comforting one lor...
my words sumhow will hurt people even more de...
tats wat people have been telling me since young...
i dunno why oso...
sry if i offended anyone todae...
its just extremely saddist...
u can see me,kn and dion standing down der...
worse den emos...
can call us e elmo monsters liao :P
haiz...
O lvls is once per lifetime...
tats it...
even if things doesn get nice....
look ahead...
its not lik acadamics is ur everything...
be sumone nice and be liked by everyone else...
tat makes a real u....
just good luck in everything u do...
we will back u all up de...
and u noe wat?
the house is just another practical thai horror...
its NOT SCARY...its only SHOCKING
tats wat i dun lik bout horror movies nowadays lor...
not scary but shocking only..
suddenly pop out and shake me about my seats...
lols...
super funny one..
and when i went home...
i overslept on e bus...
for lik 7stops..
and i took back...
wat was embarrassing was tat when i woke up...
my mouth was open!
i dunno why la...
but lik beri unglam ah...
hope i nvr snore...
omg..
no face :D :D
anyways...
have a nice day :D
byes~
恶魔之心，不可无。
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
eh for once i try to make this short :D
watched 斗牛10 finally...
its super touching...
really!!
omg...it shows me wat is life...
so near yet so far...
e restrictions and everything...
people who tink they care and noe everything...
people u luv...
people u made frens with...
havin no choice and no say in anything...
being brought up in a life u may nvr haf wanted...
all these...i can see from 1 episode of drama...
tats why i watch drama...
it brings me nearer to my life...
makes me more knowlegeable...
be more mature and understand wat u really want...
and wat u can nvr get...
feel lik thrashing wine bottles lik e way they did....
haiz...a beri sad epi of 斗牛...
but i luv it...
i changes my mood completely...
immersing myself in der world...
lols...but coz got people around i cannot show my emotions freely...
and my face is sort of lik numb...
so i cannot frown...
cannot frown means cannot get teary at all..
its super uncomfortable on lor!
wanna cry cannot cry...
not mentally but physically...
now e face oso feel odd odd de...
haiz...
tmr got O lvl chinese results...
really begging and dying for an A1...
if not A...
i will go home and isolate myself....
dun bother calling me oso...
i wun answer...
:P lols...
did a test on self-esteem...
and since when did i haf intermediate self-esteem de...
to me...i dun tink i lik anything about me at all...
i got this feeling tat everything tat i did is wrong...
and people are unhappy bout me but nvr sae anything at all...
lols...totally personal....
well...time i go and relax myself in sth more light-hearted la..
b4 i face e certificate tmr...
even e most bitter coffee i made todae was sweet...
i dunno why...
but tat wasn supposed to be e case...
it was nvr e case la...:P
lols ok la..
good luck to all getting e cert tmr...
str8 As!!
good luck...
esp to seniors :D
joel,fusheng,huiling, yingxian and all anyone tat i may haf missed out...
all e best...
:D :D
byes~
恶魔之心，不可无。
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
yahooooo!
gooooogle!!
lols...quite pissed and happy todae...
sounds contradicting but tats my life...
its full of contradictions and things liddat...
tat why people call me EMO! MUAHAHAHAHA!!
1st lesson of the day! YAHOOO!!!!
YAHOOOO!! in caps to stress e emphasis of YAHOOOOO!
lik wat zm did on her blog :P
lols...
1st lesson was PHYSICS...and u noe...
its beri beri INTERESTING!!!
coz e teacher UNDERSTANDS COMPLETELY WAT HE IS TEACHING!!
BEST teacher eva!!!
YAHOO!
oh great...e concept of waves is much more contradicting den my life...
seriously...
a wave can only move in 1 direction and energy distribution is equal throughout...
wow!? tat is so diff from geog...
a block shouldn cause a totally str8 ripple...
its a lil convex la...coz energy is focused nearer to hit point mah...
tats wat i tot...
unless common sense is not applicable in science...
den another contradicting ting happens...
and to make e day SOUNDS great...
today Yanti and Aljunied nvr come!
to make it SOUND even beta :D
THEY assigned workS!!!
omg?!
and mrs teh gets pissed at us for nth...
tats lik e most WOWED thing in history?
lols...
sumhow... liu xiaomei helped us from being caught by MOOOOO-NEH-RA during recess :D
lols...
and todae got egeog TEST...
which we only noe YESTERDAY...
and we noe tat she was HAPPY with our EXCELLENT ATTITUDE...
tats why we got a TEST! YAHOOO!!!
ITS SO NICE TO HAF TESTS!!!
AND I ACTUALLY STUDY FOR TAT TEST!!
guess wat e test is about?!
personal reflection on wat uneven academic development across students in class...
OMG?!
we study for NTH la!!!
lols...
its a test to SUAN us only...
great...
and before we left...she said in those KIND of tone...
"So how's the TeSt? DiFFiCuLT AnOT???!!!"
i was lik smurfingly pissed...
a whole lot of emotions inside me :D
to name em : smurfy,ranchoey,derangy,looney,chikoritaly,chikachikabooomy!!!
wow...
tats sum serious chaotic emotions ehs?!
den after tat went to eat at t-mall with dion and shawn...
jiahao went home T_T
so we ate LJS...
and i ate COMBO 3...
which until now i dun even noe WHY i bought a $$$$$6.90 meal...
lols...reached home and wanted to do esc badges...
my bro hog e com for 30min after i asked...
and i was STANDING beside him... W8ING for him to finish his lousy game...
oh great...
sumtimes when he urgently nids e com for projects...
i should just pretend tat e sky beri blue and e clouds beri white :D
lols... wadeva...
just live ur life beta den mine...
if not...call ur self a double loser...
:D
byes~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
P.S. all e waves are for koknam :D
恶魔之心，不可无。
Friday, January 18, 2008
yoyo!
change my blog song to 暧昧 sang by mike he and rainie yang :D
lols...
now i noe why mike he doesn have his own album :P
lols...
fahrenheit new album out le...
and its lik 2weeks ago bah?
e songs pretty nice...
but i dun lik e 小小大人物...
i esp lik 爱的王道 and 心里有数 :D
got those kind of beri comfortable feeling :D
haven listen to TiAmo yet lor...
people sae its nice :P
and aaron really can sing...
serious...
and i admire e way he sing lor...
:P though sumtimes off in live performance...
but overall his voice is beri unique :D
lols...
wadeva...
rmbr got alot of things to blog about but when come to blog...
forgot liaoz...
let me refer to my notes in e handphones :P
......
oh ya!
1st thing in line :D
aljunied!
not e mrt station but our teacher :D
eh...
sth wrong with her..
she makes her sound lik she beri pro...
and i admit shes beri good at teaching...
coz she will finish all e linking statements with 2 weeks...
tats fast...
and its one whole chapter...
tats super smart of her to use this method...
but she dun allow us to put bags on our laps...
dunno with u guys la...
but i lik to put bags on my laps...
it gives me a sense of security and i can stay focused more often...
she tell me to put down my bag and e whole lesson i was lik dreaming...
eh...
and put bags on laps got sickness de meh?
she sae go side-effects one?
beri funny lor...
if liddat i must have died liao...
i hag alot weird habits :P
eh...
and i seriously cannot stand adeeb...
dun wanna waste any saliva on him lor...
he beri irritating...
hello?!
he was lik goin around and poking his nose into other people's matters...
and we noe tat his nose is beri BIG..
so wat?
we dun wan tat nose of his...
if i had...
i will not go out at all...
w8 till my nose transplant ok alr den go out face people la..
makes me super pissed one lor...
mood-spoiler...
and i tot tat mdm ashikin goin to talk to him 1v1 todae lor...
wanna see how she handle him...
in e end no nice show la...
cme was still as interesting but a lil disappointed...
tot got show watch...
haiz...
but still beri nice lik cme...
nvr had such a fun cme b4..
and e SE really meant student engagement...
she engaged us in a conversation bout how her husband proposed to her...
and it was super funny :D
lols...
gotta redo e sc badge...
and gif to her by monday...
miss tan sae i dun smile so often as b4 liao...
really meh?
i tot i smile more le...
haiz...
HAPPY BDAE SHAWN!
lols...shawn's bdae didn able to greet on blog...
coz ytd reach home at 4.30pm...
5.30pm i sleep all e way to 5.30am...
skip dinner and everything..
coz not feeling yet ytd...
got headaches and things liddat...
even wake up oso headache...
got tat beri drowsy feeling for e whole dae...
lols...
bet u couldn see...
it only got more serious when having erhu...
dunno why but den got more sleepy and tired...
den left early at 5.30pm...
5.30 again...
T_T
tat timing is cursed!
ahhhhhhhh!
lols...tmr nidda report at 8am to practice for CNY songs...
means i using sch e erhu...
coz i not bringing it der...
den nid bring back...
but got movies ltr :D
and we nvr settle if avp watching anot lor...
lols...
nowadays lik nvr really go study le ah?
gotta plan it out liao...
dun wan got starting no ending de..
must be lik our lover,ryan,who always starts and nvr end...
for example?
chattin with gals....sarshaying...smiling - :3
lols...
tats life :D
ahhhh i got no life!! yay!!
lols...time to piss myself..
:P
EV thing i still not beri happy...
they waste e chance on a sec 1...
they just come in for 2 weeks only tell em go interview...
hello?!
their environment haven even stabilise yet...
and they haven even adapt to e place yet lor...
and wats worse was tat he gave a super bad comment...
omg?!
if our sch doesn get autonomy, our cert is useless liao lor...
and u will study in a government-aided sch for 4more years...
so childish la e mindset...
nvr think b4 speaking...
should gif me e chance mah...
argh...
lols...
tat sec 1 gonna die if we noe who he is lor..
:P joking la...
lols...but guessed ryan nvr sae anything in e interview...
lols...his face said so :P
interview...interview...
should let me go de...
i e interview pro...
if suay suay fail...
i will blame em for not letting me in :P
lols...
恶魔 reigns!
yahoooo!
food court for how many days le?
omg!
cannot stand tat...
lols anyways e teacher tat come to our class during recess went to mr leonard tan to complain...
omg?!
everything is sc fault...
hello?!
tink properly...
we help u all do so many things and didn even hear an ant's "thank you"
and you still do this to us?
hello?!
take us for granted...
ALL E EVENTS AND THINGS WE DO IN SC ARE CONSIDERED VOLUNTEERY
and we didn even complain...
we are just ordinary people ok?!
dun treat us lik immortals...
or should i sae a more ideal word?
"souls".
eh...
dun appreciate wat we do...
lik wat huihui sae...
if suddenly no sc...
the sch and remain lik e way it is meh?
all e students can have events and activities meh?
hello?!
tink b4 u sae sth pls...
and dun see e excos lik we do nth liddat...
we are all doing e dirty things for u all...
and spend alot of time and effort...
summore we didn even complain at all...
we did it VOLUNTEERY...
and this is wat we get?
we dun sae out means u dun tink such thing exists...
omg? so insensitive...
and treat us as if we didn do anything at all...
hello?!
e people tat nvr come meeting u dun scold...
scold e people who come punctually and haf nth to do with e l8 people....
this makes no sense....
lik hitting ur head against e wall with a force of 50000N and expect e head to be stil der, intact...
eh...starting to feel super not happy with e sch liao...
no lunch no nth...
dun they study bio and home econs?
sumone who has eaten sth has more attention span and a better mood than those who stays hungry...
omg?...
ahhhhhhhhh...
e post become another complain session liao :P
must sth liddat happen almost everyday?
super suay one lor...
ahhh!
madness...
omg...heard tat got new mozzie virus...
can be fatal one and no vaccine yet...
ahhhh!
if hit me...
i will deifinitely die...
coz i got no willpower to continue my life T_T
just follow koknam and cut e wrist XD
blood will spurt out in waves...
and splat around everyone in e area..
can u imagine tat?
and ur blood in body left beri little til ur skin attaches directly on ur bones...
pressing against all ur veins and arteries...
and den e capillaries,veins and arteries burst repectively...
and u become deflated...
and ur lay inside ur pool of bloood..
drowning inside it, it starts to clot...
and u are clotted inside it...
becoming a lump of red substance...
:D
isn tat cute?
:D
tats great :D :D
lols theres a new smilie :3
means rabbit or act cute :D
:3 :3
muacks and bb :D
go have dinner liaoz :D
恶魔之心，不可无。
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
yoyoyoyoyo! :P
todae has been another =='' day for me..
1stly...everything in e morn was pretty ok lor...
except for e fact tat e grooming check is still on...
lols...omg...
and ytd got caught for hair...
but todae nvr kenna...
see? ytd is teacher not happy with me so catch me de :P
and sumhow they asked for lost badges...
mine's spoilt :P
and guess wat?
miss jamie tan was SOOOOOOO efficient coz she managed to get e badges todae afternoon...
and gave it out to everybody todae...
omg...
howeva...i was still tasked to design e sc badge...
which e logo is done :P
but i will develop it sumtime...before friday...
coz i promised her tat i will finish it by friday..
and i believe tat e badge she gave out todae was supposed to be for e EV visit...
and i was super super super hyper hyper ultra ultra pissed!!!
it was waaaaaaay worse den ytd T_T
omg...
thinking back is still making me pissed....
ARGH!!!
read on if u wan if not den skip! its all my rants and raves! !!!!
i m excluded in e EV visit!!!!
WTF?!!!
i m a cca leader and sc exco...
why i not counted?
summore i wanna go for it de lor...
and i dun get e chance to go...
wtf is this? damn school...
even if nid go for interview den go la...
didn even tell me...
argh!? got interview oso confirm pass one...
heard its 1 in every 5 years...
means once in my lifetime from now la?!
and i dun get to experience it...
WTf....
dammit...
sry for all e vulgarities...
but this is e most angry day i had since p6!!!
omg..
and i was complaining to sum people todae bout this...
though i tried to remain calm...
but e mental anger is just so much...
and tats why i got a beri beri serious headache...
from chinese lesson onwards...
omg!its freaking pain...
and its all becoz of e EV visit...
dun nid me den nvm lor...
next time got tings come to me i oso dun wan do liao...
i m not goin to contribute to e sch from todae onwards...
unless e sch come and beg for me...
den i consider...
****...
ARGH!!!
dun tink u all can see how pissed i m now...
now i typing i scolding everyone tat come kajiao me...
even my mum...
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
got tat feeling to keep spamming on this on and on!
nth to vent on sia!
this thing is killing me!
no nid me den still check my grooming for wat sia?
super 不爽 with mr tan...
heard he daoed anyone who asked bout this...
purposely one rite?
i purposely dao u oso..
at first tot u nvr come jeesiao me i dun care bout u...
but since u dun lik e excos so much...
i join e others lor...
this is not e way to lead people...
for goodness sake...
omg!? his approach is just so wrong...
and to imagine i was so polite to him ytd when i hand e attendance list to him...
wat is tis?!
i bet this thing can spoil e next few days to come...
when ryan leaves e class for e EV interview...
and i myself being cooped in e class looking at em goin around with e visitors...
u noe wat kind of feeling is tat anot?
its worse den kenna dao lor...
feel lik crying over this matter...
meeans alot to me but i nvr sae out...
and i dun nid anyone to help me fite for it...
since they didn even bother putting me in e list...
why i be so thick-skin to ask for e chance?
i m not so despo...
but its e "qihao" feeling inside me..
its so not me...when i dun get to do such things...
oh great...
believe me anot...
but i m super super sad in front of e com now...
and u may not haf eva seen me in such a face b4...
wadeva...dun talk le...
nth helps anyway...
i'll just repay everything e sch has done for me...
haiz...
trying to get back to blogging...
to me...blogging is a platform for me to express my own emotions..
coz my emotions are quite dead in sch...
u dun really see e full me...
but from here u can see wat really bothers me..
its not bout e sarcasm or comments about me....
i can take all of em...
but its e tiniest things...
its e tings tat almost noone would eva haf noticed...
tat makes my life go wrong...
:'(
haiz..
den todae went out to sch for lunch and saw this bloody pad when we went back to sch...
its super gross and i ate a full lunch...
eee...
how e gal throw it der...
dig for it and just pull it out meh?
disgusting leh...
in front of a sch summore...
lols...
den we went to cd shelter to study...
sumhow got to noe e whole of 12 liao...
and not much of others...
but i tried playing canon e melody on e piano...
i suck at it...
but i tink still can hear la...
:P
tats all bah...
e main jizz is everything in e rants...
they can make me forget all e happy moments i had in this sch...
i may not even shed a tear when i leave...
autonomy doesn require me...
it doesn require anyone...
its about how u make e students feel tat they lik this sch...
and not how u make e students sae how they lik it...
not referring to ngee ann...
but in any case...
this is to anyone is any sch...
seriously...
saddies...
another thing tat can potentially drive to depression or long-term emo or suicidal...
haiz...
todae's another sad post...
can't my life be any beta?
i tink ryan has a way beta life den mine...
can i just die away?
who will actually care even as i die la...
i dare not imagine...
but whoeva around me tat goes away...
my life will be beri beri much devastated...
tat's how i define emo...
"emotional feelings per unit time"
emo feel alot...
but they feel too much...causing their emotions to feel numb...
thus not allowing em to express their feelings freely...
tats wat's becoming of me...
if such things were to proceed...
i m not as strong as i look...
though i alr look lik a weakling...
i dun tink anyone can actually understand my world...
i tink it suits me beta to be "e alien from pluto"
all e above stated are really wat i felt for e whole upper secondary events...
it takes one worm to spoil a basket of apples...
and it takes only one act to spoil all e good impressions left...
i can be forgiving...
but must see situation...
sry for making e whole post sound so solemn/emo
but i nid to sae all these things out to sumone...
not face to face...
coz i cannot take rejections...
i just nid to sae...to make me feel beta...
at least i wun tink so much...
well..
wish u all haf a much much beta life den me...
byes.......
恶魔之心,不可无。
Monday, January 14, 2008
oh... its another day....
haiz...
todae got emaths test...
and did i mention i left e 3b book in sch?
and i dun rmbr putting e 4a book at home?
lols...matrix i sure can liao...
but quartiles sux!
:P :P
i cannot do e last question e part b lor...
so 2 marks gone...
hopefully its 2 marks only bah :P
eh and i was super pissed with myself...
coz sumhow i couldn get kn to tell me e sitename...
and he hasn been talking about it at all..
daoing me...
argh...
when search for e site...
all e thai things pop up...
lols...
his name must be so thai bah...
pong cup ka pong noi?
wadeva...
~~~~~~~~~~
swish to e movements :P
well...ate kfc for 4 consecutive days...
making my stomach feel beri grogy and things liddat...
T_T
ltr tmr got diarrhoea die le...
eh todae got people from UWC come to our sch to promote e scholarship...
actually i m interested in e course lor...
seems fun...
but den...
whole singapore only got 4 people can apply der...
haven failed any interview yet so may try to fail it this time round...
haven talked to my parents bout it yet...
dunno wat reaction will they haf...
but my bro will definitely be lik " YAY! USE COM FOR WHOLE DAY LIAO!! WOOOOHZ!! "
... i tot tat i should be e one saying tat...
coz nowadays i couldn use e com so frequently lor...
coz my bro really hog it for long hours one lor...
i just got e com and i watched 斗牛09 :P
its beri beri beri nice :P
not touching...yet...
argh...
getting draggy...can't believe a 70min show can actually end so quickly...
omg...
and e monitor go sth wrong...
just shut down suddenly when watching e show de...
wows...
and i got to noe 2 more people watching 斗牛...
and both are guys...
got to noe from a game i play :P
lols...
guess alot people get to noe bout this show alr...
been hearing e 斗牛 songs as ringtones as well...
ahhh....
sidetracking~
i wanna go watch "the mist"
nc16... haiz...
seem lik "the fog"...
should be sumthing similar bah...
though i nvr watch "the fog" oso :P
eh...
adeeb has been beri ranchoey...
since lik sec 3 started?
dunno wat's e prob with him lor...
keep saying bad remarks bout people...
and it doesn sound to be in e joking tone at all...
so gy and i seized e chance to shoot back at him...
and had a good laugh :P :P
for more info bout e content of e "shootings"
pls refer to e people sitting around e area...
:P ...
miss yanti has been beri beri nice to us :D
hahz... though she still is good at jacking people as well...
found e english question i asked todae quite redundant....
extra...
shouldn haf asked de...
make me feel to uncomfortable after tat...
anyways...my day has been totally pissed alr...
coz in e morn...
i was sumhow told to raise tat singapore flag...
and hazmi scold me bout untying e knots...
and he said "shouldn ask e scs to do this" in those kind of wanna-piss-u tone...
argh! dammit! u tink we wan do ah?!
zzz...forget it la...
almost no teachers in this sch actually fight for student rights...
though all of em sae 我很了解你们的心情... but they noe nth one lor...
argh...a bunch of fakers...
hate fakers...disgust me...
there are still sum teachers tat really beri nice and really care and fight for us...
but e majority just can't be bothered...
can we haf e rights to choose or rate our teachers?
its totally so wrong for a teacher to stay in this career just to get e pay and dun care bout anything else...
teaching oso require passion...
lik learning music or things liddat...
if u do it coz u are forced into it...
den just gif up...
dun let me see u trying to work so hard for sth tat u dun even care for...
makes u look beri beri fake...
haiz...
recently e mood oso not beri mood..
tats why wanna stay out more...
it will adjust my mood....
if i coop at home, i will tink too much de...
but with frens i tink things can recover super quickly :D
lols...
mum promised me to let me learn violin in nov!!!
yahoo!
and to get a new com for me :D
she alr viewed e catalouge for e suitable models to buy le :D
just waiting for her to call our computer agent :D
lols...
eh....
wanna come up with a co logo similar to tat of 东上 e school crest lor...
for those who actually noe wat i m talking about maybe can tell me if it will be nice at e front of e shirt anot :D
draft 1 is complete...
and expect der to be at least 5 drafts for each design...
dun wanna be those kind of people tat sound noble but dun do anything at all de...
tat is practically wat's causing ccas to breakdown...
lols...
wadeva la...
i tink its time for my mum to take over her maple life liao :D
good nite all :D if u happen to read at night...
if not...u must be a freak to read in e day...
lols...so..cya tmr...hopefully...
if i haven turn suicidal yet :P
lols...
杀迪斯 WuLaBaHa
guess wat?
these few days have been sum long days for me...
lost e concept of time...
haiz...
sumone sae, if wanna noe his blog, go find sure can find de...
is i lazy to find only...
hello? i dun even noe how to find lor...
i beri toot one mah...
liddat sae me...
tink too highly of me le bah :P
eh den friday was 小组 and i lost e feeling of goin to 小组
coz i get those kind of isolation feeling...
beri sad de...
T_T and kn told me sumthing...
that can potentially drive me to depression :P
but its not wat he said...
it was sumthing else...
:P ...
haiz...sumhow...
the day just passed and i got beri emo...
coz tat isolation feeling is getting over me...
argh...
and e next day was 大组 its been a long time...
sumhow...
after e co celebration...
i noticed sumone getting further and further away from me...
dun even talk to me in 大组 anymore...
and tat got me super sad...
was did i did wrong to deserve all these isolation?
noone bother bout me..
wth...
seriously noone..
der was noone i talked to in 大组...
tat made me feel super sad again...
and after 大组 was sadder...
they all ask around who wanna have lunch...
and sumhow felt tat they purposely miss me out...
till kn asked me after i said out wat i feel...
argh...
this world is changing its view upon me...
haiz...
T_T
but thanks kn...
helping me change string and askin me for lunch...
after that was not bad la...
went to bugis e nlb...
and met lc and juliet...
and den e hist people were doing there hist project while i play my hp game..
haiz...
and that librarian chase us out...
to chase us out...they always use this line de...
"we have feedback from a member of the public that you guys were making too much noise, can u all please leave this area or stop playing ur games?"
we were playing hom hom chucki chucki den :P
den we went out to play...
and kn lost 3 times...
after his forfeits he turned emo...
and there was nth i could do to change him back...
till after dinner...
where we went to explore kallang for e refill kfc...
lols....
den tats all lor..
todae was...another day...
after reading e amaths book...
and after summone actually told me tmr got emaths test...
and e textbooks are all in sch...
lols...
wadeva la..
dun care le...
no mood...
after all those isolation...
sumtimes i tot i may just turn depressed from depression suddenly lor...
but den it will not happen de :P
coz my brain tell me not to :P
lols...
byes...
my mum look lik she wanna play pc liao :P
byebye~
杀迪斯 WuLaBaHa
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
guess wat?!
todae is just as FUN!!!
its lik omg?!
lessons lessons and more lessons...
and after tat meetings and meetings...
at home...nth nth and more nth...
argh!!!
cannot take this kind of life anymore liao...
nid entertainment!
i wanna go watch movies!!
should be able to get pass AVP2?
wanna watch it lor...
seem beri interesting though i dun really lik action stuffs...
they just piss me off...
since zm zh they all are using banditto to explain things...
i shall use rancho :P
it sounds more vulgar i tink :P
so in class...
there was sumone to my left...
beri beri rancho one lor...
and i not talking bout u mary :D
mary is a beri nice gal :D
i can talk to her bout everything practically...
and the rancho is just so rancho...
he's worse den a smurf!!!
keep ranting and yelling lik sum kind of hotdog and monkey hybrid...
pissed me off...
tinks he is beri quiet liddat...most noisy de is u la...rancho...
argh...
and noe wat?
zh can turn around to smile at people....
i can turn around to bang my head against e wall...
argh...being e emo one doesn seem so bad...
but activities are limited...
for example...noone to chat to...
though i just broke e ice with mary :D
tat made my life more boring...
but i could grasp e subject topics beri easily...
once said...
all saved in my hypothalamus :D
ahhh...bored bored bored!!!
seriously!!!
and during e meeting todae...
it was beri funny...
leonard tan became our sc teacher...
and he gave sum lecture and things liddat...
den he sae e student survey got this question...
"student leaders in the school serve as good role models"
and e result was 75% of cohort agree...
lols...
and i was one of em tat disagreed...
i dun even tink tat i can be a role model lor...
in fact i tink noone can la...
u should not try to be like sumone...
u should be ur real self...
uncover ur own self...
copy people makes u so fake and cheap...
unique is e word :P
haiz...
tired liao...but wanna do things leh...
coz beri sian...
so sian till no mood to sleep lor...
arrrr!!!
wadeva la...
go back to watch sum movies :D
hahz :)
cya~
杀迪斯 WuLaBaHa
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
noe wat?
my life now is left with one word...
TIRED!!!
lols...
since sat, everyday go out study :P
with gy,zm and cy...
and i was beri satisfied :D
coz i finished e whole of sec 4 emaths le :P
except vectors :P tat is :P
i dun understand vectors at all...
but all e others are ok la...
only add ons to prev years :P
so 5 chapters all master le :P
now is time for amaths...
starting with log...
rest sure can do liao :P
coz 10year series e hw dun seem to be a prob for e 1st few chaps :P
hahz...
anyways...
e sec 1 camp shirt was not exactly wat i meant it to be...
e fonts at e back were not rite...
it was supposed to be completely drawn...
not printed....
so...wadeva la...
dun really lik it :P
but gonna wear it still :P
woooos~~
beri beri tired lor..
dun even haf e energy to stone la...
just hope tat tmr will be shorter..
which i wun see any chance at all...
coz tmr end at 3...and got meeting from then...
omg!?
i wanna step down from sc and co immediately can?!
i cannot take it physically liao...
i m not those kind of extreme nocturnals tat can stay up l8 to stone ==''
i m extreme early birds :P
tried beri hard to pay attention in class todae...
and emaths was definitely not a prob...
if it was...wat for i study b4hand?
:P :P
eh...pong seemed pissed todae...
dun tink she had seen such a batch of R1s b4 :P
last year 4r1 and this year 3r1 beri diff from us...
serious...
u can see e contrast...
e people dun talk in classroom at all de...
teacher whisper oso can hear echo lor...
beri scary de...
eh and shit!!
one more resolution on my list!!!
gain at least 7kg this year :D
abit hard ah...
thru out hols i only gained 3kg...
and i dun seem to be bigger in size...
just noticing my cheeks getting lumpy T_T
but lucky not lik my bro de :P
u flick it will vibrate one lor...
and i h8 double chins...
so i wun allow myself to get one even if i reach 62kg :P
T_T hope this resolution will come true...
dun wan people to always sae i beri skinny and things liddat...
make me beri pissed de lor....
make me feel beri xtra...uncomfortable...alien....
got those kind of inferiority....
:P
hahz....den i just watched 斗牛08 :P
actually is ytd watch halfway liao...
but den e player beri slow...
no patience to w8 so i continued todae...
and it was pretty nice :D
preview was beri interesting :P
how i wish i had interesting lives lik those people in e dramas lor...
beri nice de...
although got alot of ordeals la...
but den its beri fun lor...
not lik now....so no life :P
haiz...wished i nvr existed...
den no nid to live so emoly :P
wishing for things tat will nvr come true...
i just wish tat i can fall into a deep sleep and nvr wake up again...
see?
tat is an example of a wish tat will nvr come true...
reminds me of mc king...
just liddat gone liao...
T_T
everyone in mediacorp cried for him...
he sure had alot of frens...
and e actors are all beri bonded.... ;)
i guess...
haiz....wanna go sleep liao la...
cannot take it anymore...
tmr is a longer day for us...
may i just die out :P
miss e days when i dun haf to go sch at all...
although will become white...
but its more relaxing :P
O levels...here i come :P
b4 tat...
my sleep~
byes~
杀迪斯 WuLaBaHa
Thursday, January 3, 2008
hey!
lik i guessed...todae was more tiring..
at least i rested during e interclass games :P
lols...
lie on table der and rest...
NOT sleep...
not tired till tat extent yet lor :P
eh todae morn was quite cold..
esp when e wind blow against me T_T
make me shiver lik sum kind of penguin...
penguin? wadeva...do they even shake?
and my bro delayed my ride..
i was supposed to take e prev bus...
and he bathe longer den me...
so i gotta w8 for him and things liddat...
==''
argh...
todae i was sticking to 1i1 :D
its a fun class..
challenging too :P
i knew sum of their names but they dunno mine ==''
tat is how successful my leading was :P
lols jokin la...
i didn tell em my name from e start...
just helped jacinta darren and kimberly to handle e class :P
they are all so bouncy and cheeky...
rebellous is not e word :P
beri difficult to get em to settle down...
out of 10 stations...
they did 5 ==''
tat was pretty good alr :P
coz at least i knew we had fun...
well at least i had :P
they went back for lunch after tat...
ohya!
when e game just start...
our station was in e canteen...
and then they were supposed to do chicken dance...
and as usual...
they fake they dunno how to do...
and me and jacinta were made to demo...
and wats worse was its NOT ONCE!
we demoed 2 times...
and gy said another time...
coz he nids to get out his phone and shoot us ==''
eh...
had mac for lunch =D
thx yiliang for helping me dabao :D
lols...
not much oso la...
got to noe sum really interesting people from 1i1 =D
they all are fun people with a simple mindset :D
but not all are high yet :P
just u see on e stage tmr :P
we dancing!
i dunno e dance YET but i will learn tmr...
saw charmaine and kimberly dance 2 times and sumhow got it :P
lols...and e shirts are ready!
heard its our design =D
hahz :)
after e games todae..
we played waterbomb...
i wasn supposed to be part of e picture...
until sumone splashed me ==''
and since i m wet y not share it with other people?
i pailed charmaine :P
and she pailed me back :P
hahz...
and this 1i1 guy stayed back to play with us :P
all e way until 6+++ and still follow eric they all got eat dinner wor...
he is just so on =D
he even volunteered himself to help us do e logistics =D
and he has a loud voice =D
beri smart and can lead beri well oso...
pretty shocking to us :P
and he flew when we played tug-of-war...
lols...
can u imagine a plum little boy flying with e rope?
its sparstic :P
he had a fell...
and a tear in e skin...
and gy goes blah blah bout skin tears in sec sch life...
and e topic went 歪...
as always :P
and i really lik e show "Are u smarter den a 5th grader"
its super dumb when u see those questions rated 1-5th grade...
and when e adults couldn answer ==''
lols...
still nid copy p-sch people e work...
haiz...
eh now feel quite sleepy dunno wanna watch e coffee prince...
wanna go sleep
coz tmr may stay all e wat till 10+ just to get things done...
ahs...
haf a nice nite =D
byes~
杀迪斯 WuLaBaHa
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
yoyoyoyoyo!
:P
todae is e 2nd day of e year!
actualy i tot of wanting to post on ytd de...
but tmd la...
my bro hog onto e com lor...
till quite l8 den i dun bother liao...
dun wanna quarrel with him...
coz i noe e following day nid quite sum energy to welcome e babies...
eh...
so todae was e 1st day of sch...
mdm ashikin is our form teacher of e year..
as she said...
she beri sad to take our class...
so for me...its likewise...
:P
eh since its e start of a new year...
i decided upon having sth tat i didn haf for e last 15 years...
i shall come up with a list of resolutions...
and it will be "QHNYR"
...sounds so off...
nvm la..
it stands for "QIHAO'S NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!"...
*claps*
yahooooo!
yay!!!
=='' wadeva...
its sort of lik self-imposed handicaps for me :P
1. To finish all e hw given on e day itself (not including last year's hols assignments)
2. To change a new character :) (be more open, joker, less emo, more suanning)
3. Appreciate everyone lik they are going to die tmr...
4. Be e nice and courteous qh :P
tat should be all :)
tooo much rules will turn me into a real handicap :P
eh...
anyways...
my angmoh tuition...
got 0/10 again!!!!???
i was damn pissed ok?!
it was supposed to be 1/10...
but tat wasn counted...
coz he gave me e answer b4 we move to e questions...
e question was "What is the meaning of 'eminence'?"
i was lik !!!!!!??????@######$@@@@%^^
i dun read e dictionary for nth ok?!
omg...i gonna fail english...
cannot take tis...
super pissed every tuition...
will make me hate english more and more :P
but tat day i wrote 1 compo for him...
and when he returned to me and asked me to read...
i dun even realise its mine...
its sooooo not lik my style of writing...
dunno how i wrote it in e 1st place...
use all e chim words correctly :P
at least tats fulfilling :P
lols..
back to e babies tis year :P
my bro class is super quiet and emo...
my bro is more emo den me...
u can bet on tat...
he dun even haf fren yet la...
its lik so obbiang...
though he nvr sae...
but i can see lor :P
i got 火眼金睛 :P
nth can stay veiled under my eyes :P
eh...
and sumtimes it feels odd...
coz mr ong treats us so formally...
beri uncomfortable...
XD
but tat is e mr ong we noe :P
everything is liddat de...
todae made me pretty tired...
but tat cannot deprive me of my show tonite :P
咖啡王子一号店 :P
cy sae its nice...
well i dunno :P
1st 2 epi not bad :P
talk about cy...
todae morn...
when few of us enter e class...
there was lik no seats liao...
gy sit beside ck...
and ryan was going to sit beside cy...
coz only left seats with cy, aisyah and qingyi...
lols...
and b4 he sat down...
i said quite loudly "CAIYAN! I SIT BESIDE U!!!"
at e same time she covered e table beside her and sae no to ryan :P
lols..
i only help her 保管 the seat for zm only...
after tat...
zm and henry came in...
zm took her seat with cy...
and i scram behind and sat on e floor behind shawn...
den after tat ashikin sae henry and sit at her table 1st...
so i stood up...
wanna see how come still got space...
den when i stand up...
gy they all beri bad ah?!
sae qingyi der got one last space...
so it was either me or henry...
omg?!
i was soooo scared to be suay another time...
but i dun wan henry to sit der oso lor...
lik so suay ah?
in e end ashikin tell henry to sit der...
though i was relieved...
but henry was sad T_T
eh...
he should sit with me...
i ask ashikin next time...
if henry sit with qingyi...
he may become extinct...
extinct as in lik no more 传宗接代 those things :P
coz sit der can become monk liao :P
XD
eh...
and ck helped me take back all my stuffs from e classroom :)
thx alot :D
but i nvr knew i got so much books...
and my bio file was on e top of e stack...
and i saw a box of bio file...
oh shit i nvr hand in...
T_T lols..
and i counted 33 in e box..
so i wasn so bad after all...
and she wanted to check e hair and nails and shoes...
she sae can pass me..
i was lik PHEWW!?
coz my nails quite long wor!
:P
hahz...
wat made me feel most wrong was lik ashikin said "ryan! i m going to make everyone lik u!"
LOLS!!!
she sounded lik e whole world dun lik him...
actualy hes ok la..
after me and kn have castrasted him :P
hes a freak...
he got 4 balls...
:P each of us took a pair :D
so colourful summore...
nvr knew it could change its colour so readily...
summore its so flexible and bouncy :P
tats y hes a freak XD
yoyoyo! go do hw in e weekend...
:D tats great...
todaes events dun wanna talk much bout it la..
anyways...
kymberly sis beri beri beri fierce wor!!!
ask her for her name she reply: "WHY?!WHY?!WHY?!"
==''
lols...manners a bit can...people wan noe ur name make fren with u oso liddat...
if come erhu she die...dun wan fren me fine lor...
i make her my enemy :P
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
eh den 4 excos and sum scs got play "hoom hoom chucki chucki"!
lols...i nvr forfeit!
i getting more pro in it liao :P
come challenge me lor :P
=='' since when i become so 不要脸...
wadeva...
tmr is a shorter day but more tiring...
but still i must watch my show :P
starting soon :D
now my com e games all i dun wanna play liao..
so i shall use it to blog and watch shows only :P
so monday is free day :)
reserve for shopping and shows :)
i bought sum new pants oso :)
from e shopping on monday...
zzz...
now my mum quarrel with my bro...
my tat other bro...
super AP...
dun lik him...
little bit only raise voice...
make me pissed... i scold him...
he not happy quarrel with my mum...
he beri odd one...
he noe quarrel with me sure lose...
so vent on other bro and mum de...
loser lai de :P
and he got this toben cut :P
i dun tink he even realises its toben :P
lols...
act beng only :P
acting skills at most 2.5/10...
:P eh wish everyone another fulfilling year to come :)
especially in Os :)
and stay in contact foreva...
serious...foreva :) :)
bye~
杀迪斯 WuLaBaHa